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Thursday, December 25, 2014
Wednesday, December 17, 2014
Keynote Address of Dr. Allan B.I. Bernardo
• Congresswoman, Dr
Anna York Bondoc,
• Hon. Commissioner Yolanda Reyes,
• Hon. Commissioner Yolanda Reyes,
• Hon. PRB
Chair Miriam Cue,
and PRB members
Hon Imelda Villar
and Hon Alexa
Abrenica,
• Dr Angela
Regala, President of PAP and
all PAP officers
and directors,
• Distinguished guests,
• Our new
professional psychometricians and
psychologists,
I wish
to extend my
warmest congratulations to
all those who
passed the first
ever board exams
for psychometricians and
for psychologists, and
to all the
other professional psychologists
and psychometricians taking
their oath today.
The passage
of R.A. 10029
or The Philippine
Psychology Act of
2009 ushered in
a new stage
in the development
of the psychology
profession in the
Philippines, with the
national government regulating
the practice of
psychometricians and psychologists. This
act that regulates
our profession is a clear
statement of how
our nation’s leaders
recognize the important
role of psychometricians and
psychologists in nation
building. We should
bear in mind
that the Philippines
is presently the
only Asian country
where the government
recognizes and regulates
the profession of
psychology. And in
a recent meeting
of heads of ASEAN psychology
societies, the Philippine
Psychology Act was
closely studied by
our ASEAN neighbors;
and for this
the Philippine psychology
community should be
proud of this
significant and historic
milestone of Philippine psychology.
Now, YOU
are part of
this milestone. Or
let me correct
that. Your passing
the first board
exams for psychometricians and
for psychologists is
a new milestone
in this milestone.
Although there are
a good number
of psychometricians and
psychologists who have
been licensed without
examination even before
you took the
board exam, there
is something truly
extraordinary in your
taking part in
the board exam.
For one, it demonstrates how
foolishly courageous you
are! While many
others chose to
wait it out,
and see how
the first exam
goes, you took
a big risk
and went ahead
(some would say
crazily) into unknown
territory. So I
salute you not
only for passing,
but also for
your extraordinary courage.
But more
importantly, your taking
the exam is
a bellwether of
a permanent change
in the landscape
of psychology in
the Philippines. The
permanent change involves
a concerted effort
to improve psychology
education and teaching,
upgrading the standards
of professional and
ethical practice, all of which
would contribute to the continuous
growth of psychology
as a respected
scientific discipline and
profession in our
country. Your passing
the exam and
your taking the
oath today means
that there is
no turning back
to the progress
in the professionalization of
psychology in the
country. Today’s event
signals to all
members and stakeholders
of the Philippine
psychology community that
we psychologists take
our profession seriously,
and we cherish
our various responsibilities in
our different communities
and societies.
But let
us consider what
this all means.
What does it
mean to be
a registered psychometrician or
registered psychologist? What
does it mean
to be charged
to execute our
responsibilities as licensed
professionals? For some
of us, they
will reduce this
achievement to tangibles
– the PRC
pin, the professional
ID card with
the registration number,
the letters that
they can add
to their professional
titles (RPM, RPSY),
which were obtained
after filling up
documents, photocopying them,
signing these, affixing
the thumb marks,
cueing in many
lines, making several
payments, and so
on. These tangibles
of being a
registered professional are
important because of
what they represent.
And I hope
you value what
they represent more
than the pin,
those letters after
your name, and
the ID with
your registration number.
Let me
share with you
what I think
this professional registration
means. In essence,
your professional registration
as psychometrician or
psychologist means that
you are now
part of a community of
Filipino psychologists. Who is in
that community? That’s
the person sitting
next to you
and across you.
That also includes
your former professors
who were previously
licensed without examination
(although let’s assume
they would have
also passed the
exam if they
took it). The
community also includes
your colleagues, your
former colleagues, and
all your future
colleagues in the
various professional fields
of psychology. The
community would also
include psychometricians and
psychologists in various
provinces and regions
of the country,
working in clinics,
hospitals, schools, community
centers, organizations, and so on.
The community often
comes together in
the Psychological Association
of the Philippines,
whose members and
leaders are also
part of the
community.
Now that
may all sound
rather obvious, so
let me give
you a bit
of an historical
background about this
community and why
it sought to
be recognized as
a regulated profession.
The first attempt
to get Filipino
psychologists registered was in the
early 1980s in
the last years
of Martial Law,
in was called
the Batasang Pambansa.
The motivation for
this was a
threat. There was
word that the
Philippine Medical Association
wanted to restrict
the provision of
psychotherapy and other
mental health interventions
to licensed medical
professionals.
Unfortunately, that initial
attempt to enact
a law to
regulate the practice
of psychology did
not prosper; and
it did not
prosper for another
25 years or
so. But fortunately,
the Philippine psychology
community was left
to do its
own unregulated thing.
What galvanized
the Philippine psychology
community again was
yet another threat.
The passage of
the Philippine Guidance
and Counseling Act
in 2004 threatened
the practice of
many Filipino psychometricians and
psychologists, as the
IRR of that
law restricted the
provision of services
such as counseling
and psychological testing
to licensed guidance
counselors. I remember
the anger and
the frustration when
our colleagues in
the guidance counseling
profession were telling
trained psychologists that
they cannot do
psychological testing; and
telling us, “You
will be fired,”
and worse, we
were told, “You
will be put
to jail because
that is the
law.” Fortunately, no
one was put
to jail, although
some did lose
their jobs. I
tell you this
history not to
speak badly of
guidance counselors, who
to this day
are our important
partners in the
mental health community.
I tell you
this history because
the Philippine psychology
community, organized by
the Psychological Association
of the Philippines
responded most positively
to this threat,
to what could
be seen as
some form of
bullying of the
entire profession. Yes,
we were angry;
we were frustrated;
we had to
shout, scream, and
vent our frustrations
somehow. But we
were not hopeless;
we did not
cower; we did
not surrender. Instead
the leaders of
our community strategized,
developed many alternative
plans, and forged
new alliances.
Fortunately we
found allies, in
persons like Cong.
Anna York Bondoc.
We also learned
to tentatively resolve
differences within our
community. We came
together in our
own haphazard way.
We responded positively
as a community,
and the Psychology
Bill became the
Psychology Act, and
fast forward... we
are here today.
Here we
are today, a
community that has
perhaps reluctantly come
together as THE
community of professional
psychologists in the
Philippines. We are
still a community
with internal conflicts;
there are still
issues that we
all do not
agree; and there
will be other
concerns, big and
small, that will
challenge our community
in the future.
But the milestone
of RA10029, and
the milestone of
your oath-‐taking today
tells us that
we CANNOT ever
let any issue
divide our community
again, because we
saw what good
can come from
uniting together as one psychology
community. As a
community, we should
strive to find
solutions and forge
compromises regarding problems
and issues that
will confront us
in the future. RA10029
not only recognizes
the important role
of psychometricians and
psychologist for nation
building. More importantly,
RA10029 articulates a
clear mandate for
all psychometricians and
psychologists to actively
take part in
these processes of
building communities, organizations, programs,
and of building
and helping people.
To realize
this mandate, all
registered psychometricians and
psychologists are called
upon to actively
engage this community.
Do not take
your PRC ID
and then just
do your own
thing, thinking that
you now have
the license to
do just that,
your own thing.
Part of the
mandate of RA10029
is call to
professional citizenship. You are citizens
of this professional
community, and there
are certain values
and expectations that
should guide our
professional citizenship. There
are many values,
but I would
like to emphasize
just three value
pairs this afternoon,
three pairs of
values which I
know are very
closely related to
each other: ethics
and professionalism, excellence
and cultivation, and
empathy and responsiveness.
First, all
licenses are governed
by ethical codes.
Psychologists in the
Philippines had ethical
guidelines even before
RA10029. Part of
your professional citizenship
is to know
the general principles
and the specific
guidelines of this
code of ethics.
But this part
of your professional
citizenship cannot be
a simple cognitive
understanding of the
document; instead, a
good professional citizen
of the Philippine
psychology community lives
and breathes the
provisions of this
code of ethics,
advocates the code
of ethics in
all venues and
forums, and calls
attention to breaches
of the code
when confronted by
such. It is in your
advocacy and exemplification of
the provisions of
this code that you
become the ethical
professional psychologist. Ethics
and professionalism.
Part of
the code of
ethics refers to
competencies – that
it is unethical
for a psychologist
to provide services
and undertake professional
acts for which
he/she does not
have the appropriate
training and competence.
The board exams
that you just
passed assures as
that you meet
minimum competencies to
provide psychological services.
But let us
keep in mind that the
science of our
profession is growing
in leaps and
bounds; new theories,
interventions, tools and
techniques are proposed
and studied constantly.
As such, it is the
responsibility of a
good professional citizen
of the Philippine
psychology community to
constantly cultivate his/her
knowledge and skills
as a psychology
professional. The fact
that you passed
the board exam
should not be
a license for
you to say
you know enough;
instead, the fact
that you passed
the board exam
means that you
know enough to
start learning more
and more. Excellence
and cultivation.
Why do
we need to
have such high
aspirations and to
continuously cultivate our
skills? Because we
have communities, organizations, and
people we serve.
And very simply,
we cannot fail
them -‐-‐ but
that is such
an avoidant position.
As a community
of professional psychologists
our goal
should not be
just to avoid
failing our stakeholders.
Instead our goal
is to provide
the best that
the fast growing
science and profession
of psychology has
to offer to
our stakeholders, because
we care about
our stakeholders. We
want our communities
to thrive, we
want the organizations we
serve to meet
their high aspirations,
and we want
the individuals we
help to solve
their problems and
to flourish. Excellence
and cultivation is
not a personal
conceit. We strive
to be better
because we empathize
with the plight
of our stakeholders,
and we want
to be responsive
to their needs.
We do not
serve our stakeholders
with a high
sense of self-‐ importance; instead
we subordinate the
esteem we have
as professionals to
help our stakeholders
attain their important
goals.
Also remember,
that our stakeholders’
goals are defined
within a rather
problematic society; a
society that experiences
vast social inequalities
and injustices, where
opportunities for growth
and personal development
are not equally
distributed, where individuals,
families, and organizations face
numerous stressors and
risks, where many
people voices are
silenced by oppressive
structures in our
social system, where
many people in
the margins have
not found their
voices at all
– AND where highly educated
psychometricians and psychologists
like you are
among the privileged.
We can make
a difference in
the lives of
others, if we
chose to, with
empathy and responsiveness, with
excellence and cultivation,
guided by ethics
and professionalism.
Three value
pairs that I hope will
be your guide
in your journey
of good professional
citizenship; a journey
that “officially” begins
today with your
oath – a
journey that you
will begin with
a strong sense
of pride. Yes,
you should be
very proud of
your significant role
in touching the
future of Philippine
psychology. But that
role is not
limited to your
activities in today’s
celebration. That role
in touching the
future of Philippine
psychology is a
lifelong role. Because
you should remember
that your achievement
that we celebrate
today is also
your mandate to
serve the profession
and the community
to the best
of your ability.
I hope that you do
not disappoint the
leaders of the
psychology profession who
are witnesses to
your oath taking
today. I hope
you do not
disappoint our advocates
like Dr Anna
Bondoc and the
other former leaders
of the PAP
who have worked
hard to get
us where we
are now. Instead,
I hope you
become exemplars of
professional citizenship, and in your
becoming so, you
are truly helping
build a stronger
community of Philippine
psychologists that is
more united even
amid its diversity,
a community that
will not only
act when it
is threatened, but
will be proactive
and animated in
being a force
for a good
and just society.
You will hopefully
be a very
outstanding citizen of
the professional community
of Filipino psychologists
that serves its
lawful mandate with
utmost conviction.
When you
all take your
oath this afternoon,
you will be
changed. But more
importantly, remember
that you are
now licensed to
be agents of
change for the
people you work
for. For me
that is a
most exciting thought.
And so I
have to congratulate
you all once
more, and invite
you to form
and reform our
Philippine psychology community,
and together, let
us touch the
future and make
it better.
Allan B. I.
Bernardo
9 December 2014
PICC, Manila
https://drive.google.com/file/d/0B9L6cSSvjzAodUU2S0NUSGxOQWc/view?usp=sharing
Maraming salamat Dr. Bernardo for sharing with us your keynote speech on the 4th Joint Oath Taking Ceremonies for Psychologists and Psychometricians. Mabuhay po kayo!
Maraming salamat Dr. Bernardo for sharing with us your keynote speech on the 4th Joint Oath Taking Ceremonies for Psychologists and Psychometricians. Mabuhay po kayo!
Video courtesy of Lea Katrine Sabilla
Friday, December 12, 2014
An Oath to Take
(Note: Below is a personal story of one of 2014 BLE Psychometrician topnotchers who preferred to be anonymous.)
Yesterday I took an oath... And lest I forget one of the most crucial time in my life... I decided to simply write about it.
GRADUATION.
Graduating from college was a very powerful and empowering experience. It was pure bliss. And to be able to have a degree at one of the most excellent universities in the country was cherry on top. And so fresh from graduation I had the time of my life. Celebrations went on and on. I traveled with friends, climbed mountains, went to the provinces of my parents... I had not been able to stay at my house for a whole day I think. It was an unforgettable summer for me.
Everything had to end though. That summer ended. And back in my room I was faced with this BIG QUESTION: What's next? Life taunts me... "Hey, what should you do with that degree you were so proud of?"
And I know then that I had to do something. So I started hunting jobs. But I was way too picky. I applied for jobs, passed those exams, calls here and there, all those necessary stuff. I received offers... which I all declined. Now, all of us know that applying for a job is HARD work. But I always find myself rejecting the jobs I had worked hard for. "WHY?" I asked myself every time. And the only answer I get is a vague "You know you're not ready."
I had a constant argument with myself. It went like this:
"You know you can be ready if you want to"
"Oh yeah?! That's not so simple. My heart's not yet ready."
"You're impossible! That company is so good! You're wasting money, and we're talking about months of salary here!"
"I said I'm not yet ready."
And a new set of argument would follow suit. I wasn't ready, perhaps. Or maybe, I just needed lots of time to think things through. But I still had another problem... The Board Exam.
Honestly, I was one of those who felt unenthusiastic about BLEPP. It was just an unwanted burden that I had to take on. It made my possible career paths more difficult to achieve. I felt like Harry Potter. In a way, I was one of the first "chosen ones" who needed to walk on this unpaved road. Crazy. I felt like Harry Potter as he faced Voldemort. I was terrified. I'm aware that I was risking my name, my reputation, my dreams and a whole lot more. I'm even risking my sanity in the process, come to think of it. And to think that I had to "waste" a precious 7 months to prepare for this hateful board exam was just too much. My life was literally put on hold. I was frustrated.
Ironically, I was one of the first few who enrolled in the review classes offered by my university. But that's only because my parents were already asking what I'd do with my life. So I put on a bright face and told them I want to review for the exam.
Funny thing is, I think I was the one who pushed my friends and blockmates (who were all as confused as I am right then) to enroll in the review classes. Haha. All I was thinking then is this: At least we've something to do... for now.
I stopped applying for jobs. Yet I still wasn't taking the review seriously. I only went to classes because I miss my blockmates and my beautiful university. I was going through the motions. I had awful test scores every time. But I didn't care. Not really. Until I realized that I was not being myself. This is not me anymore. I've always been persistent. And when I do something, I give it the best I've got. My dislike of the board exam got in the way of my enthusiasm for life. So I decided to turn this "threat" into a "challenge" that I have to take. And I do take challenges very seriously.
Also, I wanted to take this review time not just so I can pass the board exam, but that so I can retain most of what I've learned in the 4 years I've studied this beautiful course, Psychology. I've always been and will always be inlove with this subject. Looking back, I chose this course just because... Just because. Haha. It was a spontaneous decision. I just wanted to study a versatile course because I still do not know what to do with my life then. I was soul-searching, in a way. But I never regretted that one spontaneous decision that changed my life. However, I realized after graduation that the versatility of this course is a double-edged sword. I wanted to be a Guidance Counselor on my first year in college, an HR Manager the next year, Clinical Psychologist on the third, Social Worker the next, or a preschool teacher perhaps?! I wanted to do all of that. I was frustrated. Yet this review time enabled me to gather my thoughts and decide on what I really want to do with my life...
Moment by moment, I've found myself being enthusiastic and joyful about all of this. I struggle every now and then, old doubts creep in sometimes... The chances of failure was huge. But then there were my friends. I had them during college, I still have them now. Even though some of them went to med school, some are now working, others migrated... their love and support are still with me. They touched me in ways different with that of my family. Perhaps because they chose me, and stayed anyway :)
Every now and then I studied with my reviewmates/friends at coffee shops (which always turns out to be kwento time! Lol). I thought that we couldn't get any closer by now, after 4 years of being together... but we did. Sharing all those test anxieties, bouts of fear and all those feelings related to unemployment and struggles toward maturity, we supported each other more than we could ever fathom... I loved them more than ever. Also, I am now friends with college batchmates whom I haven't even said a single hello to when we were in college. Another thing is that I've been reunited with my highschool friends who also studied psychology. I was soooo happy to be with them again. Moreover, I became closer with my sister too! She's a law student and we were both too busy sometimes. But ever since I reviewed for the board exams we became closer than ever before.
The most touching thing though is my relationship with God. I admit that I didn't have enough time for Him in college. Now, I started rekindling my love for Him. I started rereading the Bible. I started to say novenas, like novenas to St. Jude and St. Claire. I also faithfully attended every Wednesday a novena mass at Baclaran. Since then I got in touched with His Suffering Mother. She also faced the unknown, she also faced uncertainties like me right now... but she triumphed. I was so drawn to her and she gave me so much strength. My supportive parents even accompanied me to Manaog. It was such a lovely place for a soul. I felt tranquility. This review time had been turned into a beautiful spiritual experience for me as well. Also, this was a secret, but I attended mass every single day as I review. My parents thought that I was just with friends or something. It's just that our church is near and I felt that I had so much time in my hands to not be able to give Him an hour of my everyday. Attending daily mass was such a big help to me, in ways that I can't fully explain.
A couple of months passed. Everything's going so well for me. Enlightened, that's what I am. Happy and blessed, too. Until I only had a month... Time was terribly fast. I've only finished TOP and bits of IO then. I know I know. It's because I also reviewed Gen Psych, Biopsych, Social Psych, Beh. Measurement & Analysis and Human Dev't... Ok I know, I'm crazy. But I promised to review everything right? So I can retain the four precious years of study... But due to my stubbornness, now I barely have time anymore for the other subjects. And when I think of all the time I read novels... argh. Anyway so week by week I crammed everything as much as possible. But it was still in vain.
MOCK EXAMS
Those exams mocked me, alright. The mock exams turned out to be a diagnostic exams for me. I didn't follow the pacing of our review classes. So there. I was so scared by now.
A week before the exams I was convinced I wouldn't be able to pass. Despite my faith that God could grant anything for me, I meekly told Him that no matter what happens I'd understand and I'd still be thankful for the Halcyon days He has given me.
Still, I cringe everytime I tried to picture myself failing the exams. I really tried to accept it in advance. I know that I do not deserve to pass. But I think of my parents and they sure deserve to see their daughter pass. If there was anyone as concerned as I with my future, it was my family. I couldn't bear to disappoint them. I would be shattered if I fail. Later on I learned that my father was worried that I wouldn't pass so he prayed (he's not really spiritual).
Two days before the exam I went to a Mcdo Cafe so I can burn the midnight oil with a friend. Guess what, I finished 5 large coffee refills just so I'd stay awake to finish our entire book for Human Resouce Management. I'm a fast reader, but I haven't finished it, much to my dismay. It was six am when we went home. Clap, clap, clap. That was the first time since college that I'd stay awake after midnight just to study. I've still got a day to study but I haven't even started reviewing Psych Assessment. I was so forlorn. Besides I have no inkling on how to study that subject. I studied our handouts (I haven't even read any of our handouts yet) but I felt that it wasn't enough. By then I know that my chances of passing are getting slimmer.
THE EXAMS
Those 2 days of examination... The exams... Everything's a blur. I remember that I was studying until the very last minute. I couldn't help it. I know very well that I should be resting and stuff, but I can't. I was panicking, my heart was filled with this sickly dread that everything would go wrong. On the first day I only had 4 hours of sleep. I was nauseatingly nervous and sleepy and hopeful all at the same time. I went to St Jude first thing in the morning since I was just assigned to UE. It turned out that it was the feast day of St. Jude! Yaaay! I've always been a devotee. That morning I lighted those set of colorful candles (each color with a diff. meaning) and hoped for the best.
I was so confident with TOP but as I took the exam my confidence level dropped to zero. I was so confused about those items. I was astounded to know that I do not know this and that (my favorite subject is TOP). At the end of the day I became depressed. I was shocked too, that others seem so confident while I was in pure misery.
Now, my friends and I wanted to attend the mass at St. Jude Shrine to be celebrated by Archbishop Tagle. Hours before the mass the church was already full, and we're lucky that we went early. I was so exhausted that I fell asleep while waiting. The mass was so long but it was worth it. That night I had 4 hours of sleep yet again. So I was sooo sleepy the next day, and I was even more devastated about the exams. I had a severe case of trichotillomania as I "tried" answering psych assessment. It was pure guesswork on my part and I was so so unhappy after finishing it.
WAITING...
Waiting for the results was agony... I dare not hope to pass. I was in a daze. Right after the exam I slept for 18 hours straight. 18 Hours! Classic regression. I cocooned myself in my room. After a while I tried to act okay but I was really depressed about the exams. I was in denial. I was like, "Is it really over?! Can I take it again pleeeasse?". I was even angry for all those involved with the test construction. It was awful to take an exam with typos and grammatical errors. I was so afraid of the results that I asked my friends to just look for my name as soon as the results come out. I haven't any courage.
The final Judgement
I was online when a friend sent a message. Reading "Congrats!" made my heart jumped for joy. I couldn't believe it until she sent the link. I was sooo happy. My mom was shaking as I said that I passed. I was shaking badly too! Excitement and joy mingled, my sympathetic nervous system was on fire, the fb notifs was crazy, and I'm deliriously happy.
BUT WAIT THERE'S MORE...
Midnight came and my blockmates congratulated me... for being a topnotcher.
"HA. HA HA AS IF". "WHAT AGAIN?! SRSLY??! DI NGA?"
Yet I looked it up and my name was there! I refreshed the 'abs-cbn news' page ten times just to be sure but my name was still there! WOW. YAAAY! IT'S TRUE! I never imagined that one coming! My mom and sister were jumping out of joy...
GRADUATION.
Graduating from college was a very powerful and empowering experience. It was pure bliss. And to be able to have a degree at one of the most excellent universities in the country was cherry on top. And so fresh from graduation I had the time of my life. Celebrations went on and on. I traveled with friends, climbed mountains, went to the provinces of my parents... I had not been able to stay at my house for a whole day I think. It was an unforgettable summer for me.
Everything had to end though. That summer ended. And back in my room I was faced with this BIG QUESTION: What's next? Life taunts me... "Hey, what should you do with that degree you were so proud of?"
And I know then that I had to do something. So I started hunting jobs. But I was way too picky. I applied for jobs, passed those exams, calls here and there, all those necessary stuff. I received offers... which I all declined. Now, all of us know that applying for a job is HARD work. But I always find myself rejecting the jobs I had worked hard for. "WHY?" I asked myself every time. And the only answer I get is a vague "You know you're not ready."
I had a constant argument with myself. It went like this:
"You know you can be ready if you want to"
"Oh yeah?! That's not so simple. My heart's not yet ready."
"You're impossible! That company is so good! You're wasting money, and we're talking about months of salary here!"
"I said I'm not yet ready."
And a new set of argument would follow suit. I wasn't ready, perhaps. Or maybe, I just needed lots of time to think things through. But I still had another problem... The Board Exam.
Honestly, I was one of those who felt unenthusiastic about BLEPP. It was just an unwanted burden that I had to take on. It made my possible career paths more difficult to achieve. I felt like Harry Potter. In a way, I was one of the first "chosen ones" who needed to walk on this unpaved road. Crazy. I felt like Harry Potter as he faced Voldemort. I was terrified. I'm aware that I was risking my name, my reputation, my dreams and a whole lot more. I'm even risking my sanity in the process, come to think of it. And to think that I had to "waste" a precious 7 months to prepare for this hateful board exam was just too much. My life was literally put on hold. I was frustrated.
Ironically, I was one of the first few who enrolled in the review classes offered by my university. But that's only because my parents were already asking what I'd do with my life. So I put on a bright face and told them I want to review for the exam.
Funny thing is, I think I was the one who pushed my friends and blockmates (who were all as confused as I am right then) to enroll in the review classes. Haha. All I was thinking then is this: At least we've something to do... for now.
I stopped applying for jobs. Yet I still wasn't taking the review seriously. I only went to classes because I miss my blockmates and my beautiful university. I was going through the motions. I had awful test scores every time. But I didn't care. Not really. Until I realized that I was not being myself. This is not me anymore. I've always been persistent. And when I do something, I give it the best I've got. My dislike of the board exam got in the way of my enthusiasm for life. So I decided to turn this "threat" into a "challenge" that I have to take. And I do take challenges very seriously.
Also, I wanted to take this review time not just so I can pass the board exam, but that so I can retain most of what I've learned in the 4 years I've studied this beautiful course, Psychology. I've always been and will always be inlove with this subject. Looking back, I chose this course just because... Just because. Haha. It was a spontaneous decision. I just wanted to study a versatile course because I still do not know what to do with my life then. I was soul-searching, in a way. But I never regretted that one spontaneous decision that changed my life. However, I realized after graduation that the versatility of this course is a double-edged sword. I wanted to be a Guidance Counselor on my first year in college, an HR Manager the next year, Clinical Psychologist on the third, Social Worker the next, or a preschool teacher perhaps?! I wanted to do all of that. I was frustrated. Yet this review time enabled me to gather my thoughts and decide on what I really want to do with my life...
Moment by moment, I've found myself being enthusiastic and joyful about all of this. I struggle every now and then, old doubts creep in sometimes... The chances of failure was huge. But then there were my friends. I had them during college, I still have them now. Even though some of them went to med school, some are now working, others migrated... their love and support are still with me. They touched me in ways different with that of my family. Perhaps because they chose me, and stayed anyway :)
Every now and then I studied with my reviewmates/friends at coffee shops (which always turns out to be kwento time! Lol). I thought that we couldn't get any closer by now, after 4 years of being together... but we did. Sharing all those test anxieties, bouts of fear and all those feelings related to unemployment and struggles toward maturity, we supported each other more than we could ever fathom... I loved them more than ever. Also, I am now friends with college batchmates whom I haven't even said a single hello to when we were in college. Another thing is that I've been reunited with my highschool friends who also studied psychology. I was soooo happy to be with them again. Moreover, I became closer with my sister too! She's a law student and we were both too busy sometimes. But ever since I reviewed for the board exams we became closer than ever before.
The most touching thing though is my relationship with God. I admit that I didn't have enough time for Him in college. Now, I started rekindling my love for Him. I started rereading the Bible. I started to say novenas, like novenas to St. Jude and St. Claire. I also faithfully attended every Wednesday a novena mass at Baclaran. Since then I got in touched with His Suffering Mother. She also faced the unknown, she also faced uncertainties like me right now... but she triumphed. I was so drawn to her and she gave me so much strength. My supportive parents even accompanied me to Manaog. It was such a lovely place for a soul. I felt tranquility. This review time had been turned into a beautiful spiritual experience for me as well. Also, this was a secret, but I attended mass every single day as I review. My parents thought that I was just with friends or something. It's just that our church is near and I felt that I had so much time in my hands to not be able to give Him an hour of my everyday. Attending daily mass was such a big help to me, in ways that I can't fully explain.
A couple of months passed. Everything's going so well for me. Enlightened, that's what I am. Happy and blessed, too. Until I only had a month... Time was terribly fast. I've only finished TOP and bits of IO then. I know I know. It's because I also reviewed Gen Psych, Biopsych, Social Psych, Beh. Measurement & Analysis and Human Dev't... Ok I know, I'm crazy. But I promised to review everything right? So I can retain the four precious years of study... But due to my stubbornness, now I barely have time anymore for the other subjects. And when I think of all the time I read novels... argh. Anyway so week by week I crammed everything as much as possible. But it was still in vain.
MOCK EXAMS
Those exams mocked me, alright. The mock exams turned out to be a diagnostic exams for me. I didn't follow the pacing of our review classes. So there. I was so scared by now.
A week before the exams I was convinced I wouldn't be able to pass. Despite my faith that God could grant anything for me, I meekly told Him that no matter what happens I'd understand and I'd still be thankful for the Halcyon days He has given me.
Still, I cringe everytime I tried to picture myself failing the exams. I really tried to accept it in advance. I know that I do not deserve to pass. But I think of my parents and they sure deserve to see their daughter pass. If there was anyone as concerned as I with my future, it was my family. I couldn't bear to disappoint them. I would be shattered if I fail. Later on I learned that my father was worried that I wouldn't pass so he prayed (he's not really spiritual).
Two days before the exam I went to a Mcdo Cafe so I can burn the midnight oil with a friend. Guess what, I finished 5 large coffee refills just so I'd stay awake to finish our entire book for Human Resouce Management. I'm a fast reader, but I haven't finished it, much to my dismay. It was six am when we went home. Clap, clap, clap. That was the first time since college that I'd stay awake after midnight just to study. I've still got a day to study but I haven't even started reviewing Psych Assessment. I was so forlorn. Besides I have no inkling on how to study that subject. I studied our handouts (I haven't even read any of our handouts yet) but I felt that it wasn't enough. By then I know that my chances of passing are getting slimmer.
THE EXAMS
Those 2 days of examination... The exams... Everything's a blur. I remember that I was studying until the very last minute. I couldn't help it. I know very well that I should be resting and stuff, but I can't. I was panicking, my heart was filled with this sickly dread that everything would go wrong. On the first day I only had 4 hours of sleep. I was nauseatingly nervous and sleepy and hopeful all at the same time. I went to St Jude first thing in the morning since I was just assigned to UE. It turned out that it was the feast day of St. Jude! Yaaay! I've always been a devotee. That morning I lighted those set of colorful candles (each color with a diff. meaning) and hoped for the best.
I was so confident with TOP but as I took the exam my confidence level dropped to zero. I was so confused about those items. I was astounded to know that I do not know this and that (my favorite subject is TOP). At the end of the day I became depressed. I was shocked too, that others seem so confident while I was in pure misery.
Now, my friends and I wanted to attend the mass at St. Jude Shrine to be celebrated by Archbishop Tagle. Hours before the mass the church was already full, and we're lucky that we went early. I was so exhausted that I fell asleep while waiting. The mass was so long but it was worth it. That night I had 4 hours of sleep yet again. So I was sooo sleepy the next day, and I was even more devastated about the exams. I had a severe case of trichotillomania as I "tried" answering psych assessment. It was pure guesswork on my part and I was so so unhappy after finishing it.
WAITING...
Waiting for the results was agony... I dare not hope to pass. I was in a daze. Right after the exam I slept for 18 hours straight. 18 Hours! Classic regression. I cocooned myself in my room. After a while I tried to act okay but I was really depressed about the exams. I was in denial. I was like, "Is it really over?! Can I take it again pleeeasse?". I was even angry for all those involved with the test construction. It was awful to take an exam with typos and grammatical errors. I was so afraid of the results that I asked my friends to just look for my name as soon as the results come out. I haven't any courage.
The final Judgement
I was online when a friend sent a message. Reading "Congrats!" made my heart jumped for joy. I couldn't believe it until she sent the link. I was sooo happy. My mom was shaking as I said that I passed. I was shaking badly too! Excitement and joy mingled, my sympathetic nervous system was on fire, the fb notifs was crazy, and I'm deliriously happy.
BUT WAIT THERE'S MORE...
Midnight came and my blockmates congratulated me... for being a topnotcher.
"HA. HA HA AS IF". "WHAT AGAIN?! SRSLY??! DI NGA?"
Yet I looked it up and my name was there! I refreshed the 'abs-cbn news' page ten times just to be sure but my name was still there! WOW. YAAAY! IT'S TRUE! I never imagined that one coming! My mom and sister were jumping out of joy...
YESTERDAY'S OATH TAKING
At PICC, it all came back. All the emotion I felt came crashing down on me as I went up the stage. Gratitude, immense happiness, a sense of accomplishment... Who would have thought that I, a happy-go-lucky soul, would be able to receive a medal and be standing right before such astounding persons who contributed much to psychology as a profession here in our country. And to be able to see such pride in the eyes of our college dean, my professors and especially my parents as I wore the medal... It all came back. All I can say is, thank you. I was basking in my loved ones' admiration and joy.
Now that it's over I just wanted to sear these memories in my mind, in my heart and in my soul. Lest I forget... People forget. I may forget. One thing's for sure, the person I am before all of this is so different to the person I am right now. No regrets. I'm so funny, I thought that I'd be wasting my time with this board exams. I was wrong. I was so wrong. It made me fall in love with psychology all over again. It bought me time for myself, bought me serenity, helped me grow to maturity, enabled me to get closer with my friends, family and especially God... Truly, no matter what I'll face in the future, I'll be a better version of myself. So help me God.
At PICC, it all came back. All the emotion I felt came crashing down on me as I went up the stage. Gratitude, immense happiness, a sense of accomplishment... Who would have thought that I, a happy-go-lucky soul, would be able to receive a medal and be standing right before such astounding persons who contributed much to psychology as a profession here in our country. And to be able to see such pride in the eyes of our college dean, my professors and especially my parents as I wore the medal... It all came back. All I can say is, thank you. I was basking in my loved ones' admiration and joy.
Now that it's over I just wanted to sear these memories in my mind, in my heart and in my soul. Lest I forget... People forget. I may forget. One thing's for sure, the person I am before all of this is so different to the person I am right now. No regrets. I'm so funny, I thought that I'd be wasting my time with this board exams. I was wrong. I was so wrong. It made me fall in love with psychology all over again. It bought me time for myself, bought me serenity, helped me grow to maturity, enabled me to get closer with my friends, family and especially God... Truly, no matter what I'll face in the future, I'll be a better version of myself. So help me God.
Wednesday, December 10, 2014
July 2015 BLEPP Schedules
As announced in yesterday's 4th Joint Oath Taking of Psychologists and Psychometricians by Dr. Imelda Virginia G. Villar, schedule of the 2015 BLEPP will be as follows:
Psychometricians
Date of Exam July 21-22, 2015
(Venues: Manila, Baguio, Cebu, Davao & Legaspi)
Deadline in Filing of Applications July 1, 2015
Release of Exam Result July 30, 2015
Psychologists
Date of Exam July 23-24, 2015 (Venue: Manila)
Deadline in Filing of Applications July 3, 2015
Release of Exam Result July 30, 2015
Begin your review now, seven (7) months to go!
Source - http://www.prc.gov.ph/uploaded/documents/2015ExamSched.pdf
Mukha ng Kasiyahan sa 4th Joint Oath Taking Ceremonies
4th Joint Oath Taking Ceremonies Psychologists and Psychometricians
9 December 2014
PICC, CCP Complex, Pasay City
Mga iba't-ibang larawan ng kasiyahan ng mga nag-oath taking. Hindi na kailangan ang maraming sasabihin, panoorin na lang ang mga larawan. Meron pa po dito -
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Tuesday, December 9, 2014
"Tis the day of Kita-kits sa Oath taking
Hindi biro ang kumuha ng lisensiya para sa mga mga board passers ng kauna-unahang Licensure Exam for Psychometricians. Noong una baptism of fire sa exam, dahil bago at first batch sa pagkuha ng exam (maliban pa sa pagproseso ng mga dokumento). Tapos ngayon, baptism of typhoon Ruby/rain/flood sa pag-attend naman ng Oath Taking sa PICC. Marami ang hindi makakadalo gawa ng bagyo.
Finally ang kita-kits sa oath taking! Pero hindi biro. Kaya dapat magamit sa maayos at mabuting paraan ang lisensiya sa daming pinagdaanan ng mga Pioneer batch.
Sana lang din masagot ng mabuti at magkaroon ng maayos na resolusyon ang hinaing ng mga hindi makakadalo sa refund ng kanilang tickers, dahil sa lagay ng panahon, gustuhin man nilang makadalo ang sungit ng panahon naman ang pumipigil sa kanila. Alam ko na magagawan ng paraan ng Board of Psychology ng PRC na magkakaroon ng oath taking doon sa mga hindi makakadalo sa araw na ito. May ibang rehiyon na ang may naka-set na oath taking nila.
Hangad din namin sa Philippine Psychometrician Reviewer na sana sa susunod na pagkakataon lahat ng hindi naging mapalad sa unang pagkakataon ay mas maging mapalad sa susunod board exam sa taon 2015, at hindi binabagyo ang inyong magiging Oath taking.
Kita-kits sa Oath taking, ito na siya, may ilang aberya pa rin subalit kayang-kayang tugunan at malampasan, maging mapagkampi sana ang kalikasan sa ating mga Pioneers.
Kaya kita-kits...
Cloudy pa rin sa Quezon City area as of 8:18 AM |
Sunday, November 23, 2014
Magiting na mga admins ng Philippine Psychometrician Reviewer
(Courtesy of Admin E) |
Proudly introducing the hardworking and successful admins of our Facebook Page - Philippine Psychometrician Reviewer.
Congratulations to all our admins now RPm!
At first, these folks like any readers of our FB page used to ask lots of questions and clarifications. Since it was not so easy attending to many questions/comments in our blog and on FB, researching online materials and quizzes, conducting online surveys, blogging, reviewing on the side, and sometimes taking home some work and doing other duties and responsibilities, I decided to invite them become admins and engage them instead to have their questions answered and get clarified instead. Thanks to crowd sourcing as well.
So we created our own group where we vet resources, quizzes and information to share publicly. Online camaraderie blossomed even if we do not personally know each other. We were bound by a common objective in helping other Psychometrician reviewees. We inspired each other and we made sure it spilled over to the our Facebook page. Definitely we had our differences and disagreements. There were times that we were remiss and could not share actively on FB since there are equally other pressing and important things to do in life, but still we made sure that whatever questions, suggestions, blog comments and clarifications from likers and readers, we all tried our best to respond and provide sensible answers and assurance.
Our apology to those whom we were not able to respond to and to some posts that created confusion in particular that "calculator" thing that made some furor (sincere and personal apology from Tino Repaso).
In some of our predicaments, it helped emboldened us to send private message on several occasions to Dr. Cue to the extent that there were occasions we were misconstrued unprofessional for our assertiveness to get the much needed information (so rare) specifically about CAV, Subject Equivalency among other things. We are thankful that she provided us replies and so we quoted her and shared them here in our blog and on the social media (FB and Twitter).
We admins are equally thankful for all the blessings that we received from all of your for the small things that we were able to accomplished in providing information and resources. We believed that your blessings were instrumental and enablers for us to be successful in passing the licensure exam. We reaped what we have sown.
So in behalf of our admins are heartfelt gratitude to all of you dear readers for helping us strive harder to serve you and in so doing we are able to increase our own "self-efficacy". For passers we hope to see you in our RPm network page to discuss and pursue our agenda as board passers. We will maintain our reviewer's page for those who will retake the exam and for first timers. It is our wish that we can enlist more volunteers to maintain our FB page since your admins are also leveling up to the next stage of their professional goals - that of becoming licensed Psychologists.
We hope whether you decide to remain as Psychometrician or desire to become Psychologist, that we all continue to unite and cooperate in making our profession vibrant, worthy, useful and we all contribute in the making of the his/her-story of the field of Psychology in the Philippines a very remarkable one.
Mabuhay tayong lahat! Padayon!
Friday, November 21, 2014
Defeat not an option
by Anonymous Psychometrician
It was third week of August when I decided to take the board exam. It was a struggle. Dealing out with the requirements marks the impending doom that is ahead of me. Time, energy and money we’re all essential part of the process. I also began collecting hand-out materials, PDF files, books, and everything that may help me freshen up my memory with all the essential topics that I have to review. I have to do it by myself, without a review center. It was mid-September when I finally accomplished my application, it was a relief. I didn’t realize it’s really just the beginning.
There and then, I decided to start browsing my resources. But life as you planned it doesn’t come that easy. Juggling a full time (demanding) job and a part time job (both are unrelated to the field) gave me no chance to glimpse even a single sheet of a hand-out. I go home tired and exhausted. I started to lose hope as the exam is fast approaching. I guess October wasn’t a good month for me, and I just want the exam to be over, pass or fail, it wouldn’t matter. I’ve learned my lesson, the hard way. Always look before you leap.
I’ve come to a realization that I will not let myself be defeated just like that. Maybe, I can give a little fight. So starting the 2nd week of October, after work, I allot at least an hour to review. Weekends became my bestfriend too. I tried taking online quizzes, but all my scores are flunk. It was hard. Reality was hitting me. All I know is that I wasn’t fully equipped, but I was learning.
Fast forward…
A day before the exam, I’ve met my friends in Manila. Travelling back and forth would be exhausting so we decided to find a place to accommodate us. It wasn’t easy, AGAIN. After roaming around the streets of Manila we decided to stay in a not-so-accommodating-hotel (we don’t have any option anymoreL). It was around 8:30 PM when we checked-in, and all we wanted was to take a rest. No more review for the night because of the physical and mental fatigue! Oh extraneous variables!
Day of exam! Tummy ache, lack of sleep, Kaba, and all. Patong-patong. I even forgot my PRC receipt! HAHA. And the exam had begun (DON’T FORGET TO PRAY, IT HELPS). After taking Theories of Personality, I was shocked. It was difficult. The concepts were quite familiar, but I cannot seem to find the answers. ‘I SHOULD HAVE STUDIED MORE INTENTLY. I FAIL TO PREPARE’. It was a blame game. And then, overhearing other examinees that it was a not-so-difficult-test for them just added a pinch of frustration.
I took each exam nearly an hour and a couple of minutes. Two hours for Assessment (HARDCORE). I kept calm during the exam. I tried to remember everything. Analyse. Think. Shade. Skip. Go back. Shade. Skip. Guess. Shade C. Shade. Repeat. Ohhh. I was laughing at myself, really. The exam was generally difficult (considering the time of my preparation and the quality of my review). I got some sure items and a lot of not so. It’s still a good time. At least, I’ve experienced how it feels to take a board exam.
And just like that, it was over. I prayed again, that no matter what the results be, I’ll just be thankful for all the realization I’ve come to understand. I gain more than I lose. From that day, I let the world decide on the outcome. I did my best, I guess. And then I moved on.
It was midnight when I received the news about the result. I PASSED, luckily. The feeling was ecstatic. I believe that my success was partly from hard work, and partly from luck. I didn’t give up, I fought, and now I am a victor of my own battle.
CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL THE BOARD PASSERS! WE ARE THE PIONEERS! THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING OF EVERYTHING ELSE! J
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